On making your own II: writing

How can I tell what I think till I see what I say?

–E.M. Forster

If you are reading this, then you can write.

Longer form:  since you are reading this, you are obviously literate (and allow me to commend you on your excellent taste in reading material ) and since you are reading this blog, most likely you have a lively and unusual erotic imagination.  Congratulations, dear reader!  Now allow me to urge you to start writing for yourself, if you do not already do so.

You’ll be glad that you do.

(Found at the blog Automatic Writing, which also has some cool pulp covers.)

In my own experience trying to write down some of the scenes in my heads was an intense experience.  When it goes well, you feel as if you are living inside the scene, with all that that entails.  So the very act of writing can be a fine source of erotic satisfaction in and of itself, even if you’re just writing for the drawer.  (I suppose I need not mention that it also cheap and sanitary.)

But beyond this, there’s a profound intellectual advantage to trying to write down what’s in your head, in line with Forster’s remark above.   Writing is challenging even when it is fun, and it demands energy and attention.  However much time and energy you have, you simply can’t write down everything:  you will have to make choices.   As such, trying to write down the scenes in your head forces you to try to think through what matters to you and why:  why these characters, and why these particular details?  Why does Nanetta Rector have reddish-brown hair?  Why does the Club Cuisine have naked girls swimming in tanks? Why all these damn octopuses?  Well, I think there are reasons for all of these things, but I would never have discovered them if I hadn’t started to write.  There are probably reasons, buried in my personal history and genetic makeup, for every detail-choice I make in my own writing, and there will be in yours as well.  Writing thus becomes an act of remembering things about your life you didn’t realize you had forgotten, and learning things about yourself that you didn’t know before.  It is a great technology of self-discovery.   Use it!

Oh, and by the way, if you’re lucky (and I was lucky) you’ll discover kinks you didn’t know you had before, which is great, because these too can be exploited for pleasure.  A little virtuous circle:  the pursuit of pleasure generates knowledge that generates more pleasure that encourages the pursuit of more knowledge, and so on, all the way to paradise perhaps (though that’s highly speculative and will be the subject of its own post).

It might be tricky getting started but don’t be discouraged.  Susie Bright‘s How to Write a Dirty Story is good for greasing the mental gears, so I do recommend your reading it.  Whether you might want to follow my lead in writing not prose but parascripts (for imagined comic books or movies) is entirely up to you.  It reflects my own idiosyncratic inclinations:  much of the formation of my own erotic consciousness was by visual media like pulp and paperback covers, comic books, and of course movies, so it feels natural to write in modes closely tied to an implied visual experience.   (Also, when writing in ways tied to an implied visual experience it becomes much easier to stick to the rule of “show, don’t tell.”)  If you’re like me in that respect and want a helpful tool, I recommend Celtx, which is free software which neatly and automatically formats things like comic book scripts and screenplays (and even radio scripts, in case your erotic consciousness involves a lot of implied aural experience).

Do what works for you, and good luck on your literary mission!

On making your own I

Over the next few days I’ll be posting a series of short essays urging people to their own Promethean acts, suggesting that they take a more active hand in creating their own erotica.  What could be more mad science than that?  Although of course the concept has rather ancient roots.

(Image of Pygmalion and Galatea by Himiko, found here.)

This sequence will be called “On making your own.”  I’ll try to share two things here:  One is a little bit about my (limited) experience in making my own, as a writer, commissioner of bespoke art, and miner of fetish fuel, in hopes that these might be either inspirational or useful to others.  The other will be to try to provide a bit of philosophical underpinning for the process of making your own, explaining why it’s such a good thing not just for you but for the rest of the world to bring your erotic fantasies to some kind of life.

It may seem strange for me to go out and encourage other people to become my competition, but I think that there are real cultural, technological, and personal advantages to having as many people as possible making their own.  Bear with me:  I hope this will all be clearer over the next few days.

Some site upgrades

Over the past few days I’ve been trying to fix or improve some things here at Erotic Mad Science.  You should notice the following.

CSS weirdness now fixed.  In the past you might have noticed that whenever two posts containing custom Per-Post CSS (normally posts containing paracinematic or paracomix scripts with their special formatting elements) appeared on the same page, things would get a little screwed up, with the fonts being thrown into Courier and strange messages appearing at the tops of pages.    I noted this problem before.  I have now fixed it by adopting site-wide CSS standards for these elements.  Stupid of me not to have noticed it before, but at least it’s fixed now.

Broken search function fixed. If you tried to search from the box that came up when you got a “Page Not Found” message at Erotic Mad Science, in the past, it would direct a search to Michael Janzen‘s site instead.  There’s nothing sinister about that:  Michael Janzen is the creator of the clean, neat Basic Simplicity template that Erotic Mad Science uses.    But it led to a glitch in the code for the site, which I have now found and fixed.

Parascreenplay font weight changed. If you look at the various scripts found here at Erotic Mad Science, you’ll find that I have thickened the font weight globally.  The previous Courier New font had the advantage of being a monospace font (a must for screenplays) and globally supported, but was thin and pale-gray under most browsers.  I hope the new font weight is more visually pleasing and readable.

Tag cloud added. I’ve added a tag cloud on the right-hand sidebar.

Tags improved. I am in the process of re-tagging many old posts to allow readers of the site to find thematic threads more readily.  If you have any suggestions about tags you would like to see, by all means please let me know either by commenting on this post or by contacting me.

A note on editorial policy:  as I go back and improve the tags on old posts I do occasionally spot and correct typos, as well as other editorial mistakes.  Sorry I have to do this; I confess to not being the world’s greatest self-editor.  As a matter of policy I won’t call attention to corrections of mere errata, but if any substantive updates are made, I shall definitely identify them with test noting the time and nature of the update.

Thank you and now back to regularly-scheduled mad science.

Housekeeping item: CSS weirdness

Some of you might have noticed recently the appearance on the blog of either font weirdesses (everything in Courier) and odd messages at the top of the blog at times of the form //Custom CSS  in … //.  Sorry about this.  It seems that when I have multiple posts running at the same time with different sets of Custom CSS (which I use, for example to create “screenplay effects” and recently, “comix effects”), WordPress gets a little confused.  I am not sure why this is.  Perhaps the blogging gods are punishing me for attempting to push into formatting regions Where No Blog Was Meant To Go.  (But isn’t that just like a mad scientist?)  Please bear with me…I’m trying to get a suitable workaround for the problem.

Now back to your regularly-scheduled mad science.

Paragraphing a little hosed

Due to my (perhaps hasty) installation of a new plugin the paragraph breaks on historical posts might be a little messed up for a few days until I can fix matters.  (The plugin works fine for what what I had wanted, and for some future publication formatting I also want, but as so often with mad science, there was a little side effect.)  Please bear with me…things should be fixed in a day or so.

Update I:Basically the plugin changes the way WordPress interprets the HTML I write in, so that now paragraph and line breaks need to be explicitly specified using HTML tags. Prior to the plugin’s installation, Worpress interpreted line breaks in HTML as line breaks to be reproduced in text, which was a major pain for script production. But I now have to manually fix a large number of paragraph breaks in previous material. As of now (the morning of 6/3/2010) I think I have this done for the pages and the most recent month of posts, and I hope to have the rest done in a few days. If you see anything that looks anomalous, however, feel free to contact me and I’ll try to fix it more promptly. Thanks for bearing with me here. It will benefit the site in the longer term, I’m sure.

Amazing stories

Yesterday’s post containing an Amazing Stories cover encouraged me to go deeper into the archives for this image to which my attention was directed by Bacchus at ErosBlog.

(Image originally found on Flickr here.)

Also Erotic Mad Science, but what kind?  A guy with headphones and various early-era-of-radio apparatus.  And a tiny woman, who I suppose lives in the glass dollhouse behind her and who also appears to be wired up somehow.   Unlike yesterday’s 1952 cover, I’m not even sure what story this is supposed to be illustrating.  Cross referencing clues on the cover with an available on-line index from Science-fiction: the Gernsback Years suggests that this is the May 1927 edition.  (A view confirmed by a check of a more-or-less complete cover archive for Amazing Stories here.) The story by A. Merrit was called “The Moon Pool” and they also printed part of H.G. Wells’s The Time Machine.  But is the story Bent Prout’s “The Singing Weapon”?  Or perhaps more poetically Will H. Gray’s “The Star of Dead Love”?

Perhaps it’s best not to know.  And I don’t say that because I think that any of the stories that were published way back then were bad.  Aside from The Time Machine I haven’t a clue.  Rather, I say so becaue I think that it may just be more fun to look at whatever bizzare scenario is contemplated in this cover art and invent one’s own story around it.  At least that seems to fit into the way I like to write.   The Apsinthion Protocol, for example, started out only as three characters one of whom (who would become Li Anwei) was tunred to liquid and then reconstituted by another (who would become Professor Corwin) watched with at once fascination and horror by a third (Nanetta Rector, in the end).  But it started with no backstory and not even any character names.  The rest of the script was, in a sense, written to have give the scenario something to fit into.

It would be intriguing to give the scenario above something to fit into.   Perhaps someday I shall try.  But I sure don’t want to discourage anyone else from trying in the meantime….

PDFs of all scripts available

With a little additional tweaking, I now have PDFs of all scripts available, and I’ll try to make these available on a go-forward basis for future scripts. I do think these will be a little easier on the eyes for two reasons:  (1) I can use a slightly heavier Courier font (Courier 10 Point)  in producing them than the Courier New that is generally supported by browsers and (2) there will be fewer strange line breaks that I don’t catch in the middle of blocks of text.  (WordPress, while in many ways a truly excellent software package, goes to war with my hand-coded HTML by interpreting line breaks between <p> and </p> tags as breaks to be reproduced in the text, and sometimes I don’t catch the breaks.  Bad software!)

I might update the PDFs from time to time — occasionally I spot typos or other minor mistakes that escape my initial too-quick editing process.  If I make any material changes in the future I’ll probably issue new PDFs under version numbers.

In addition to being available in links on the main script pages, you can download the PDFs for scripts directly from this post.

Happy reading, all.

I shall also try to put together a PDF version of the Thaumatophile Manifesto, but this might be a little while more, as that document presents greater production challenges due to internal links and complex formatting.

Experimental PDF version of Gnosis Dreamscapes available

One of my simpatico commenters here at EroticMadScience.com asked if it might be possible to get PDF versions of the scripts forthe purpose of reading off-line.  I’m certainly happy to at least try to oblige, although there might be a little bit of fooling around before we get anything ideal.    My first pass at producing a PDF version of Gnosis Dreamscapes is here.  By all means please have a look and let me know what you think.

I don’t expect that this will be perfect.  The document has a slightly complex production history, having begun life in Celtx’s fine free screenwriting software and then having been exported to html (with a fair amount of manual tweaking) to get it to fit inside a WordPress blog page.    The formatting is done with custom CSS with help from a WordPress plugin called Per-Post CSS (site here), so to make the PDF I did the simple and crude thing of reverse-writing it back into a simple HTML file, loading it up in a browser, and printing to PDF.  I also tweaked the font to make it slightly heavier and (I hope) more readable.

I am eager to know what everyone thinks.  Please comment.  If it seems satisfactory I’ll try putting up versions for every script.

A note on gender-neutral pronouns

There will come times on this site where it will be convenient to be able to refer to something with a third-person singular pronoun that doesn’t reference a person’s gender.  For example, in science fiction, including the fiction found on this site, there are sometimes persons to whom the notion of gender doesn’t apply: they’re neither male nor female but have no gender or are both genders or no gender or some third gender or nth gender.  And on the Internet, there are real people who pose the same issue.  Sometimes they’re writing under pseudonyms that don’t reveal gender, and sometimes they are people who don’t identify with the traditional categories of male or female.

It’s a shame that English has such a problem with this.  Languages like Chinese (the spoken version of Standard Modern Chinese, anyway) make do with a single pronoun () that does full duty for “he,” she”, and “it” with no noticeable loss in ability to communicate.  Sometimes in English we can substitute “they” in constructions to make something gender-neutral.  But in science fiction it often doesn’t make sene to do so.

After mulling the matter over for a while, I have decided that in instances where I really need a gender-neutral pronoun for a single individual, I am going to use the pronoun ve , introduced by the New Zealand writer Keri Hulme and adopted by the Australian hard sci-fi writer Greg Egan for characters (like those in the spectacular novel featured to the left) who don’t fit into conventional notions of gender.  The pronoun has the following grammatical structure:

Nominative:  ve (“Ve has a blog”)

Accusative: ver (“I called ver.  I like to blog about ver.”)

Possessive determinative: vis (“This is vis blog.”)

Possessive: vis (“That is vis.”)

Reflexive: verself (“Ve blogs about verself too much.”)

This won’t be necessary too often, but it will be sometimes.